threat·en·ing

threat me,
punch me in the face,
scold me.
do whatever u want to.

but dont u dare touch my family, bullshit!

i glad that im already over with .....

no harsh words,

owh,
do you know that when u really dont like someone,
u actually just can add them to the 'spam number' in your phone?

so all the massages and call will directly go to spam,
and not appear on the screen.

im so glad it exist and kudos to who ever invented it.

the point is,
i really donno where i put 'not really mine' handphone charger and earphone.
lol.

and im a really hard-decision-making-person,
i run to one another handphone shop this few days,
i donno what to buy! urgh.,.

and off coz within budget,
after all, im not 'anak jutawan' and my father dont run 'million of dollars' a day.
lol.

and i think if im a 'multi millionaire daughter',
i just got married sooner to someone, well, same level with me. bhahahah.

maybe i should buy another samsung and give the new earphone and charger to the real owner of my note 3.

hurm.,
just think of it.

Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word

assalamualaikum,

im sorry i posted something rude previously,
which i consult myself back, that 'DONT SAY ANYTHING WHEN U'RE ANGRY!"

im the one with bad mouth,
but as far as im concern, i keep it clean everytime i speak to people,
who actually i love/care/donno/ not familiar with.

but when somebody is really crossed the line,
i just cant handle it,
and whether u like it or not,
the truth is, ure 'childish' side of u will came out sometimes, everytime u get angry.

let me take u back 7 years ago.
i went out dating with my boyfriend (that time he is my boyfriend.hehe)
and we decided to watch a movie call " Dunia Baru The Movie'
heheh.

but that time, ada 1 lagi movie tajuk 'jumper'.
owh man, my bf seriously not the one who layan cerita melayu ok!
and ive been following Dunia Baru series at tv since day one.
mestilah nak tengok!!!

so, masa pergi tu, tetiba time kitorang nak beli tiket tu,
masa tayangan tak kene,
and believed me, my bf ni jenis tak suka tunggu,
and tak suka ade dekat shopping complex lame2.
so, dia mcm bersungut2 la,
nanti kalau beli tiket yang belah petang tu nak buat ape je tunggu lame2.
baiklah tengok filem lain.
and masa tu betul2 tayangan filem 'jumper' tu.
baik plak lepas je tayangan filem jumper tu abis, sambung dunia baru the movie tu.

tapi bila dah i pon tarik muka sebab i nak tengok dunia baru, bf nak tengok jumper.
lepas tu dia tersebut benda bodoh time marah2 tu mcm ni " hish, fuck betullah, benda gini pon nak gadoh. macam bodoh tau tak?"
direct to my face,...

i terus nangis..serius nangis!!!

and my bf tu tunggu je kat luar toilet lama jugak sbnrnye,
i duduk dalam toilet nangis.

bila klua,
dia suruh duduk sebelah dia, dan tanye " kenape bby nangis, sebab tak dapat tengok movie??"

dan aku jawab " takkkk. sebab bo0 mencarot dan cakap kesat"

hahahah.
ok.serious. aku pantang sangat2 orang ckp kesat2 ni, lagi2 pasangan.

kau nak bergadoh ke, taknak bawah aku tengok wayang ke.
nak tinggalkan aku tengah2 jalan ke.
i really dont care,

but, DONT U EVER SAY HARSH WORD TO ME!

benda tu je kau buat,
hati aku dah hancur dah.
serius hancur.

bayangkan,
how come,
orang yang kau sayang, kau suke, kau cinta, yang kau nak jadikan pasangan seumur hidup.
bila kau marah2, kau keluarkan kata2 kesat dekat dia.

'babi, kimak, bodoh, perempuan murah, sundal, "

weh,

kau ingat kau bercinta dengan monyet ke?

kau bercinta dengan bakal ibu pada anak2 kau,
pompuan yang kau sumpah seranah ni la yang kangkangkan kaki dia keluarkan badan anak2 kau dari faraj dia.

pompuan macam ni ke kau maki hamun?

come on, kau tak layak jadi manusia kot kalau mcm tu!

hurm.

im sad. coz no matter how much u say i love u,

such harsh word easily 'split out of your mouth"

easily babe, easily.

im soooo sad.

And speak good to people [al-Baqarah 2:83]

My Fav Month!!

May is coming!!!

soon enough.

will start everything new.

new strategies, new concept, new perspective,

new me, and new you perhaps!

no going to take any granted to anyone, except focusing on myself only.

hopefully something goodddd is about to happened on may!

yay!

insyaAllah.

Always pray for the best,

well, Allah sebaik-baik pengampun.

Bitch

it's sad when u have to return back what "claimed" to be not yours. 

i dont no why it is not mine basicly,hahah.

just because he refuse to take the money, and now he claim this is all his.

lol.

its ok.

i mmg laknat la sape2 yang ambil my phone during my batam trip.

ambil my purse, my phone and my tab.

sumpah, cariklah saya sampai mati, saya tak maafkan.

because that theft, i terjebak dengan semua ni.

and i dont understand y this so call rubbish agreement exist,

dan bagi ambil balik.

buruk siku.

ni la bodohnya kalau bercinta dengan orang tak matang.

haish.

jangan dia suh pulangkan makanan yang konon2 dia belanja dah la.. puas plak aku nak menjolok tekak ni ha nak kluakan balik.

takkan nak bagi taik plak kan?

Perempuan Jalang

Panggil aku sundal,
Panggil aku kimak,
Panggil aku perempuan muraH,

Perkataan pelacor keluar,
Bodoh, babi.

Layak ke jadi suami aku?
Layak ke jadi bapa pada anak2 aku?

Aku mmg bukan perempuan baik,
Tapi seumur hidup matang aku,
Aku tak penah kluakan kata-kata kesat dekat bakal pasangan aku.

inikan plak nak samakan dia dwngan binatang atau jigolo.

Tidak sama sekali. Dan aku rasa aku layak dapat yang setimpal.

The Scariest Part Is Letting Go

All of the lights land on you
The rest of the world fades from view
And all of the love I see
Please please say you feel it too
And all of the noise I hear inside
Restless and loud, unspoken and wild
And all that you need to say
To make it all go away
It's that you feel the same way too

And I know
The scariest part is letting go
'Cause love is a ghost you can't control
I promise you the truth can't hurt us now
So let the words slip out of your mouth

And all of the steps that led me to you
And all of the hell I had you walk through
But I wouldn't trade a day for the chance to say
My love, I'm in love with you

And I know
The scariest part is letting go
'Cause love is a ghost you can't control
I promise you the truth can't hurt us now
So let the words slip out of your mouth

I know that we're both afraid
We both made the same mistakes
An open heart is an open wound to you
And in the wind there's a heavy choice
Love has a quiet voice
Still you mind, now I'm yours to choose

And I know
The scariest part is letting go
Let my love be the light that guides you home

And I know
The scariest part is letting go
'Cause love is a ghost you can't control
I promise you the truth can't hurt us now
So let the words slip out of your mouth

* i dont feel it anymore. :'( 
i feel bad, but i donno! 
its missing. somewhere. for sure not in my heart anymore. 

y? 

Working Hard for?

im now working hard, i mean ive already working hard. hahaha.

im saving now, for this.

chanel espadrilles! haha. i really want to reward myself with this! well, i do hope they come out again with this canvas design, or else, i have to invest more on the leather one, which cost me around rm3000., huhuhu (reason y: i want to use my own money, not bf, not husband(if), and not parents.) 

secondly!!! nice comfy, hotel style bedroom..! agagaga. ive been working for this quite long actually, i go to one to another furniture showroom but i just cant find  the 'close to my heart' bed. hehehe. well, i just bought a comfy hotel-style duvet and bedsheet with 1000 thread as they guaranty. hopefully not exceed jun. 

hopefully i can manage to buy all this before i fly to indonesia by May. aminnnn...  pray for me guys!

so, how about you? what are you working for now??

trip to london? heheh