Ok.
Heres my plan.
Ive been thinking over and over again to buy a house or a land this few years but somehow i donno theres something holding me back.
So, now...
If im not gonna married next year, i will pursue my wish to buy a house.
When i said to buy a house, i mean a big house.. one is enough for now.
I just need to think about a location.
Maybe seremban, or melaka.
No kl. Nope. Hopefully not.
Saturday, September 24, 2016
INSECURED
Salam guys,
it has been a long time delay, again.
i love this blog. even tho this my 4th blog so far (because i cant handle the haters and someone who always poking their nose in my business) but i know i have to move on right?
so now, i just try to keep calm down, everytime i think that maybe someone who hates me reading my blog. and i keep telling myself that its ok, because not everybody loves u, because u not love everybody, right? heehee.
so, about the above mention title, sebenarnye.. setiap kali im in relationship, i feel insecured. :(
like i really - really - really hope that that will be my best relationship, and i hope that i can deliver and i can be the best that i can be, and give the best that i can give.
tapi ye lah, somehow, i ni sebenarnya akan jadi seorang yang sangat tak confident bila in relationship.
i got frustrated easily, i think negative easily.
macam, i takot i terover.
contoh kalau i nampak dia online, tapi dia cx baca my message, atau die x say hye to me, i feel bad. nanti i rasa mcm eh, i mengganggu ke? actually dia x suke ke i msg dia? ke dia rimas? ke dia sbnrnye biasa2 je, i je yang over2. kan?
kadang2, i risau mcm sebenarnye die suka i ke tak? ke sebenarnya bila dia dah nampak perangai buruk i, dia akan x suke. dia boleh terima ke tak?
and kalau i buat something, i takut dia rasa sebenarnye dia tak rasa apa2 pon, i je yang lebih2. haha.
and i akan rasa insecured, sebab kadang2 i risau dia sebenarnya kawan dengan ramai orang, and i salah sorang, dan dia akan pilih la yang mana better. hahah.
and kadang-kadang, i risau setiap kali i rasa mcm klua dengan dia, am i dressing over? or i x cantik? or sebenarnya dia ajak lepak ke ajak keluar? haha
and i akan rasa macam, bila dah lama sikit kawan, adakah dia akan boring dengan perangai i., atau dia akan muak, atau dia akan jumpa someone new yang lebih better dari i, and lastly bila i dah suka dia, dia akan tinggalkan i, and kahwin dengan orang lain?
and kadang-kadang i rasa, am i hoping too much in relationship? am i?
and kadang-kadang this days, i rasa i dah tua sangat. im 29 this year. i dont have any steady relationship,and i risau, ada ke orang nak dekat i nanti sebab i dah tua?
:(
and kadang-kadang i rasa, perlu ke i selalu cakap i sayang dekat dia, sebab i takut die rimas? kalau kalau i x cakap selalu, die ingat i x sayang dekat dia?
hahahahah.... i risau ok!! im 30 next year, and all of my close friends dah kahwin and seems happily ever after, and im here, sitting alone.
and i risau, bila i dah in relationship, that dia tak berkenan dengan idea i yang i nak jadi working wife, working mum, sebab i banyak komitmen lagi dekat family i.
and i risau kadang-kadang, just because i love my job so much, they cant bear with me. lepas tu, taknak duduk jauh dengan i, kalau dah terpaksa (pjj relationship seems ok for me right now)
and i risau, sebenarnye bila i tak pernah turn ok in relationship, maybe because im a bad woman:( sbnrnye i tak baik pon, thats why takde orang nak stay and grow old with me.
hahah.
insecured me. :(
it has been a long time delay, again.
i love this blog. even tho this my 4th blog so far (because i cant handle the haters and someone who always poking their nose in my business) but i know i have to move on right?
so now, i just try to keep calm down, everytime i think that maybe someone who hates me reading my blog. and i keep telling myself that its ok, because not everybody loves u, because u not love everybody, right? heehee.
so, about the above mention title, sebenarnye.. setiap kali im in relationship, i feel insecured. :(
like i really - really - really hope that that will be my best relationship, and i hope that i can deliver and i can be the best that i can be, and give the best that i can give.
tapi ye lah, somehow, i ni sebenarnya akan jadi seorang yang sangat tak confident bila in relationship.
i got frustrated easily, i think negative easily.
macam, i takot i terover.
contoh kalau i nampak dia online, tapi dia cx baca my message, atau die x say hye to me, i feel bad. nanti i rasa mcm eh, i mengganggu ke? actually dia x suke ke i msg dia? ke dia rimas? ke dia sbnrnye biasa2 je, i je yang over2. kan?
kadang2, i risau mcm sebenarnye die suka i ke tak? ke sebenarnya bila dia dah nampak perangai buruk i, dia akan x suke. dia boleh terima ke tak?
and kalau i buat something, i takut dia rasa sebenarnye dia tak rasa apa2 pon, i je yang lebih2. haha.
and i akan rasa insecured, sebab kadang2 i risau dia sebenarnya kawan dengan ramai orang, and i salah sorang, dan dia akan pilih la yang mana better. hahah.
and kadang-kadang, i risau setiap kali i rasa mcm klua dengan dia, am i dressing over? or i x cantik? or sebenarnya dia ajak lepak ke ajak keluar? haha
and i akan rasa macam, bila dah lama sikit kawan, adakah dia akan boring dengan perangai i., atau dia akan muak, atau dia akan jumpa someone new yang lebih better dari i, and lastly bila i dah suka dia, dia akan tinggalkan i, and kahwin dengan orang lain?
and kadang-kadang i rasa, am i hoping too much in relationship? am i?
and kadang-kadang this days, i rasa i dah tua sangat. im 29 this year. i dont have any steady relationship,and i risau, ada ke orang nak dekat i nanti sebab i dah tua?
:(
and kadang-kadang i rasa, perlu ke i selalu cakap i sayang dekat dia, sebab i takut die rimas? kalau kalau i x cakap selalu, die ingat i x sayang dekat dia?
hahahahah.... i risau ok!! im 30 next year, and all of my close friends dah kahwin and seems happily ever after, and im here, sitting alone.
and i risau, bila i dah in relationship, that dia tak berkenan dengan idea i yang i nak jadi working wife, working mum, sebab i banyak komitmen lagi dekat family i.
and i risau kadang-kadang, just because i love my job so much, they cant bear with me. lepas tu, taknak duduk jauh dengan i, kalau dah terpaksa (pjj relationship seems ok for me right now)
and i risau, sebenarnye bila i tak pernah turn ok in relationship, maybe because im a bad woman:( sbnrnye i tak baik pon, thats why takde orang nak stay and grow old with me.
hahah.
insecured me. :(
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