Wednesday, February 22, 2017

JUST MELT

i really got pissed off,

like really!

rasa macam ' dah la, i give up!!'

i taknak dah. stop it.

dalam sujud i siap doa " ya Allah, bantu aku lupakan dia"

all this while, the Doa has never stop saying your name.

now its changed.

dah laaa. i dah xnak harap apa2. its killing me.
sakitttt..

and somehow,
a single text saying " hye u"

make my heart suddenly melting again!
suddenly i understand u. i understand the craziness of buzy-ness of your job!
somehow, i understand that u are away not because you try avoiding me (as i think u did)
but u are really having a hectic life.

then suddenly my heart just as soft as butter and i reply back" u can do it."
and ' i trust u." dalam hati.

haish laaaa.
if you wanna stop, then stop plssss.
jangan main2.

-__-

Thursday, February 16, 2017

Because Allah knows Best


hey,
takpelah kalau dia taknak awak pon, ok?
you had faced this before.
u are matured enough to see all the hint,

takpela,
Allah kan ada?
kan?

chill!

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

MORNING WISH

hye bloggers!

I get back my morning wish!
I get it back after so long. 2 months long!
Yayyyy!

He didnt know that its really make me happy!

Haha. At least for now😊

Even if, if, this not gonna work out,
Between us,

I just want you to know, that i am really happy that somehow every morning u still think of me, when u wake up.

Tq!!

#imusdmbb


Thursday, January 26, 2017

Clash sebelum birthday

Hye.

Just nak tanya, kalau u have been planning for quite sometimes for your love's one birthday,

Macam surprise delivery to his/her office, atau u dah siap2 beli hadiah sebab u know, kite excited terlebih nak buat pasangan kita happy, at the end,relationship tu macam x jadi.

Macam diambang kemusnahan.macam dia dah x berminat lagi nak layan u,


So, atas dasar masih sayang, adakah u akan pos jugak /beri jugak hadiah harijadi tu pada dia?

Katakan surprise delivery tu pon uols dah byr, then nak cancelkan ke?

Atau proceed je macam biasa sbb after all, u mmg buat benda tu dengan ikhlas.


Ke camne?

Monday, December 19, 2016

KL VS Me

Salam,

so, i still cant get over my stress and dispression yet. i start feeling sad during night, almost everyday now.

right now, i really need someone to talk too, but i donno who. seems everyone who i used to talk too seems boring if they hear me talking about the same problem over and over again. hehe

its about my relationship! hurm.. i swear that i miss him sooo damn much, but unfortunately i cant say it out loud. i try to, but i just cant.

he seems ignored me for a month now, it just make me sad more. u know, when the time that actually i really need him around me.

i just moved in to KL, the city that i hate the most. i hate my house right now but i dont have choice too. its pretty close to everything but its kindda not attract me at all.

i got stress with my job right now, first time in 4 years i seriously update my resume and start sending my resume to several company now.

but, seriously,

i need him. now. :'(

its make me question that what i do wrong this time around?

well, yes, i admit that maybe im too hope for his existance. I wish that he is the one and the last one, tapi malangnye macam x je:'(

maybe sikap i yang kuat merajuk, attention seeker, (i just need his attention, thats all) and kuat membebel ( i usually call him and talk for hours, maybe sebab tu dia boring dengan i)

its make me really sad and frustrated now. hurmm.

secara sungguhnya, i memang nak luahkan sesuatu dengan someone right now. i really really really need someone to talk to. :'(

well, He came to my life first, and i tot its gonna be fun again, and u know, being like any other sweet couple. hurmmm..

i nak je rasa semula keluar dating,
bergayut lame2.

haha.
silly me.

im sorry....
i ruined the 'we' things.

i hope u give me a chance. at least one more.

or at least, if you dont want me,
just say it.

jangan hang in, buat i tertanye2. at least help me to move on and find someone else supaya i tak tertunggu2.

boleh x?

*i getting older, and too bad im too old for someone else. sedihnyee. :'(


just another bad luck in relationship again.

semoga Allah kuatkan hati i, macamana i sembunyikan dari orang lain sekarang ni. amin.

Friday, December 16, 2016

Anxiety Disorder


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i really need someone to talk to.

like REALLY!!!

and i really hope it was u.

:(


#iprayformyhappiness

Wednesday, December 7, 2016